Day64-66 (Finding it Difficult)

I don't know if it's the cold that refuses to leave my body, the stress from college, or simply that I'm losing interest but I am finding it very difficult to stay on track with this blog, working out and in some cases eating right.

It is like a trickling effect; I work out less, think about my habits less and thus lose interest in writing about it. I am not eating particularly bad, in fact I think that is one area that is pretty much on track. I just wish I could work out more consistently like I was this summer.

I think I will be setting a few new goals. After being in school for 2 weeks I am starting to realize that I can do it all (run my business, school, family) but I can't do it all well. So I have to find a new balance. What I have done is started limiting the number of parties I will accept on a weekend to increase the time I have for studying. I try to work on information gathering, organizing etc weekdays and I want to actually write big assignments on the weekends.

With my new schedule I want to move the days I will try to work out to be Saturday, Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday. I just don't know when I will be back on track with it because every other day I wake up feeling really congested and find it hard to get my cardio in. If this cold isn't gone by Monday I will get in to a doctor and see what's up.

Please stay with me as I am not giving up, I am just struggling to find a workable balance.

Day 59-63 (I'm Back)

Oh there is just no excuse for this slacking. I am so sorry for taking such a break from this blog. Some days I have simply forgotten, and others I just couldn't find the energy. I am still fighting off this nasty cold that my son has since picked up.

I am off the blogging track but still doing pretty well otherwise. Making healthy choices has never been easier. I find myself not snacking much at all anymore in the evenings. I haven't ate anywhere like McDonald's, Wendy's, KFC etc. When eating out we stick to the healthier options like Mr.Sub or Extreme Pita.

My working out is not where I'd like it to be and my goal is to get back to a more firm schedule. In part it's because I am not feeling well but it's also adjusting to my new schedule. I will be working out today but I didn't make the effort to do so yesterday. I am using this week to feel out school and re-evaluate my original ideas about the best time to workout. I will implement any changes for next week. I really just want 4 days a week in somewhat of a balance.

I am liking school a lot more now. I feel more like myself and more secure with the concept of what college is and what it isn't. I've met some great people and one girl in particular who wants to use the school's athletic center with me. I hope to implement that into my routine soon. She even said we could do yoga classes together.

Other than that, I promise to try to check back in daily like I am supposed to. I miss you all :)

Day 57 and 58 (Sick)

Well it happened... second day of school and I start feeling a cold coming on. Sure enough today I am here with a full on cold; coughing, sneezing, sore throat, watery eyes, stuffy nose. The works!

I didn't do my planned workout after school today because I could hardly breath and didn't think I'd get through a workout without fainting. So I guess I took a sick day. I will try to work out tomorrow if I feel any better, otherwise I will just do it Saturday and Sunday.

My eating has been fine and I have been good about bringing a lunch and snacks. I'm still on track and as focused as ever in many areas of my life.

I am currently sipping on some neo citron and then I'll have some meds and cover myself in vicks in an effort to shake off this cold. I guess I've been isolated at home for too long and my immune system just cant fight off the germs of fellow classmates like they used to.

Day 56 of 730 (First Day)

Today was my official first class. I have to say I feel a little better. I know I will feel better in a few weeks. I did do my workout as planned this morning before class. That in itself was such a great feeling.

I have a lot to do so I cannot post much but wanted to say hello and let everyone know that I am sticking to plan. I promise to post something of substance as much as possible.

I love all my readers so thank you for every comment. They really make me smile and keep me going.

Day 54 and 55 (Nervous Eating)

This past week has been somewhat of a roller coaster ride for me emotionally. One minute all is fun and fine and the next I am a nervous wreck. Yesterday we were at my dad's house visiting for a bbq lunch when randomly for no reason I just had to be home and because we could leave the second I started to feel an anxiety attack coming on. It was a very quiet hour long drive home.

Once we got home my husband was being unusually patient with me and my mood slowly changed to being more relaxed. However I then found myself munching on cheese and crackers. When they were done it was popcorn. When that was done it was chocolate. Finally I went to bed because I felt I was trying to eat because I was nervous and not because I was actually hungry.

This morning I feel like I cant even eat. It's almost like the reverse of nervous eating... now I am too nervous to eat. Tomorrow is the first day of school. The first day of my family's new routine. I feel bad that dinner will not be on the table for them when they get home. I feel bad that my kids will have longer school days because they will need before and after school care. I wonder if I made the right choice.

I guess deep down I know it's the right choice for me and my family in the long run, but today it just feels so scary.

Day 53 of 730 (Back to Work)

I've been slacking on my work outs this week as I have previously confessed. Today is the day I said I would get back to business. I am going to get my workout in from today until Tuesday. Wednesday is my busy day at school and I will not work out Wednesday's. Looking at my school schedule my workout plan is Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and when possible either Saturday or Sunday as well.

I might take some advice from a fellow tweeter and try increasing my intensity rather than duration of my cardio workout. I like the idea of doing 35minutes regularly but on busy days settling for a 25minute workout with a higher incline or something. I will see how September goes as I know there will be so much to adjust too.

On a side note, I have been having trouble sleeping the last few days because my brain will not stop thinking. I cannot wait to have my first week of school over with so my nerves can settle down. For now I hope exercise will help a little.

Day 52 of 730 (Emotional Mess)

Since my college orientation day yesterday I have been kinda up and down. One minute I feel motivated and ready to go and the next thing I know I am a scared shitless mess. The thing is my life is changing very quickly in just a few days and I feel like it's all so uncertain.

Everything seems to be going wrong too. For example I have been trying to get my new laptop for school for at least a month from my dad's computer guy. It wasn't until last night at 11pm that I actually got my hands on it. He was ready to go on vacation for the weekend without making sure I had my hands on it. He has been waiting for a part for so long and he finally gets it and then doesn't make sure I get it when he knows he is going away. I was not impressed. If that drama wasn't enough today we had plans to go to the children's museum which is about a 2 hour drive from here but it was pouring rain so bad that it simply wasn't safe to drive out there. I was so disappointed. It seems silly but I was looking forward to it all summer, probably more so than the kids.

I know something is wrong because I have lost my appetite today and when i get upset I usually want to eat more. Today I just really don't feel like eating. I hope I can adjust to my new life routine quickly because ready or not...here it comes.