Day 57 and 58 (Sick)

Well it happened... second day of school and I start feeling a cold coming on. Sure enough today I am here with a full on cold; coughing, sneezing, sore throat, watery eyes, stuffy nose. The works!

I didn't do my planned workout after school today because I could hardly breath and didn't think I'd get through a workout without fainting. So I guess I took a sick day. I will try to work out tomorrow if I feel any better, otherwise I will just do it Saturday and Sunday.

My eating has been fine and I have been good about bringing a lunch and snacks. I'm still on track and as focused as ever in many areas of my life.

I am currently sipping on some neo citron and then I'll have some meds and cover myself in vicks in an effort to shake off this cold. I guess I've been isolated at home for too long and my immune system just cant fight off the germs of fellow classmates like they used to.

Day 56 of 730 (First Day)

Today was my official first class. I have to say I feel a little better. I know I will feel better in a few weeks. I did do my workout as planned this morning before class. That in itself was such a great feeling.

I have a lot to do so I cannot post much but wanted to say hello and let everyone know that I am sticking to plan. I promise to post something of substance as much as possible.

I love all my readers so thank you for every comment. They really make me smile and keep me going.

Day 54 and 55 (Nervous Eating)

This past week has been somewhat of a roller coaster ride for me emotionally. One minute all is fun and fine and the next I am a nervous wreck. Yesterday we were at my dad's house visiting for a bbq lunch when randomly for no reason I just had to be home and because we could leave the second I started to feel an anxiety attack coming on. It was a very quiet hour long drive home.

Once we got home my husband was being unusually patient with me and my mood slowly changed to being more relaxed. However I then found myself munching on cheese and crackers. When they were done it was popcorn. When that was done it was chocolate. Finally I went to bed because I felt I was trying to eat because I was nervous and not because I was actually hungry.

This morning I feel like I cant even eat. It's almost like the reverse of nervous eating... now I am too nervous to eat. Tomorrow is the first day of school. The first day of my family's new routine. I feel bad that dinner will not be on the table for them when they get home. I feel bad that my kids will have longer school days because they will need before and after school care. I wonder if I made the right choice.

I guess deep down I know it's the right choice for me and my family in the long run, but today it just feels so scary.

Day 53 of 730 (Back to Work)

I've been slacking on my work outs this week as I have previously confessed. Today is the day I said I would get back to business. I am going to get my workout in from today until Tuesday. Wednesday is my busy day at school and I will not work out Wednesday's. Looking at my school schedule my workout plan is Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and when possible either Saturday or Sunday as well.

I might take some advice from a fellow tweeter and try increasing my intensity rather than duration of my cardio workout. I like the idea of doing 35minutes regularly but on busy days settling for a 25minute workout with a higher incline or something. I will see how September goes as I know there will be so much to adjust too.

On a side note, I have been having trouble sleeping the last few days because my brain will not stop thinking. I cannot wait to have my first week of school over with so my nerves can settle down. For now I hope exercise will help a little.

Day 52 of 730 (Emotional Mess)

Since my college orientation day yesterday I have been kinda up and down. One minute I feel motivated and ready to go and the next thing I know I am a scared shitless mess. The thing is my life is changing very quickly in just a few days and I feel like it's all so uncertain.

Everything seems to be going wrong too. For example I have been trying to get my new laptop for school for at least a month from my dad's computer guy. It wasn't until last night at 11pm that I actually got my hands on it. He was ready to go on vacation for the weekend without making sure I had my hands on it. He has been waiting for a part for so long and he finally gets it and then doesn't make sure I get it when he knows he is going away. I was not impressed. If that drama wasn't enough today we had plans to go to the children's museum which is about a 2 hour drive from here but it was pouring rain so bad that it simply wasn't safe to drive out there. I was so disappointed. It seems silly but I was looking forward to it all summer, probably more so than the kids.

I know something is wrong because I have lost my appetite today and when i get upset I usually want to eat more. Today I just really don't feel like eating. I hope I can adjust to my new life routine quickly because ready or not...here it comes.

Day 51 of 730 (Slacking)

This week is our family staycation. We've been pretty busy with uncertain schedules and I just haven't been working out like I should. I will be out most of the day today again and having my kids friend over for the night with a short road trip for all of tomorrow. I think I am accepting this week for what it is...a vacation.

Saturday, Sunday and Monday I will work out, plus as much as possible next week. I will build my new routine right away when school starts as not to have any bad habits forming.

I am very much looking forward to a successful month ahead with all of you by my side :)

Day 50 of 730 (Weigh In Day)

I am 50 days into my journey to a slimmer me. I've made some great changes and have stuck to my plan to work out and not attempt weight loss on diet alone. After today's weigh in I feel that I am learning the balance between eating and living well and indulging in some treats now and then. I am learning that a bad day or a bad choice does not equal failure.

Today I weighed in and I lost 4.9 lbs in August and 9.2 lbs in total. This is about 1.5 lbs per week. Am I happy? YES!!! If that wasn't enough excitement for one day, I also took my measurements today. I am not sure the correct way to report inches lost but I am down an inch all over except I am down TWO inches in my waist.

As I look forward to September I see a very busy month ahead as I adjust to college life. However I am confident that I can achieve all my dreams if I just make them important enough. Thank you to everyone for your positivity and encouragement. Today is such a very happy day for me :)