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I have no idea what day I am on in my previous blogging goals because I vanished for so long. Long enough to complete a 2 year program in College. I gained more than an education let me tell you, but now I am finished my goal of completing college (with honours by the way) and I figure if I could stick to that, and give it my all, and succeed with flying colours, then dammit, I can lose all this weight once and for all too. Isn't that easy to say to the blogger-verse.

Writing that statement is actually scary to do because I have now knocked on your door saying "Hey, I'm back and I have a goal and I want you to watch me try to achieve it". This must be how professional sports players feel when we all watch them play a game judging their every move. But college was scary to me too at first and if I had let my fear stay in the way of my goal I would still be a high school graduate.

So here I am, saying I'm back to try again. Yoda says "do or do not, there is no try" but I'm not sure if I am confident enough in myself to commit to a firm "do" and I refuse to sit at a "do not" status for a moment longer.

Day 91 of 730 (Unbalanced)

Wow it is day 91 today. However since day 70 I haven't been doing so well. I have become so focused on school and completely neglecting my weight loss goals. I have been avoiding this blog because admitting failure is difficult. It was fun checking in every day with positive energy and positive results. saying "hey look at me not doing anything" doesn't have quite the same ring to it.

There is nothing to blame it on except for my own lack of will power and dedication. Laziness has been having it's way with me. I gave all of myself to school and use that as an excuse to not workout anymore. The truth is I have plenty of time to get some workouts in.

A workout after a few days off is harder to get through and so I dread getting back on the treadmill. I need to get back on track though. I did weigh myself today to see if I have completely gone back the wrong direction and I have not so there is still hope. I need to get back to 4 days a week.

I need to not quit...not give up...not fail.

Day 70 (Feeling Good)

Well today I did my workout and now I feel great. I am reminded how good I was feeling when I was working out regularly. Completing a hard workout also makes me want to eat well even more. I just have to stick to plan and keep making it important.

I also have to remember that when I slip off track a little it isn't over. It's easy to get back on track.

Day 67-69 (Week In Review)

Let's see, where do I start? Well I did not stick to workout plan at all. The last day I did workout was Tuesday. I need to make this week better but it is getting very hard.

I am still coughing a lot which isn't helping. I am not sleeping well and am finding myself dragging during the day.

I was eating quite well until yesterday when I caught a case of the munchies. I am getting my eating back on track today though. I will work out Tomorrow for sure and hopefully get my groove back.

I do not like the feeling of slipping off the track. I need to get focused again and not let my efforts get lost in school work.

Weigh in day is coming up in 11 days. I need to see results!

Day64-66 (Finding it Difficult)

I don't know if it's the cold that refuses to leave my body, the stress from college, or simply that I'm losing interest but I am finding it very difficult to stay on track with this blog, working out and in some cases eating right.

It is like a trickling effect; I work out less, think about my habits less and thus lose interest in writing about it. I am not eating particularly bad, in fact I think that is one area that is pretty much on track. I just wish I could work out more consistently like I was this summer.

I think I will be setting a few new goals. After being in school for 2 weeks I am starting to realize that I can do it all (run my business, school, family) but I can't do it all well. So I have to find a new balance. What I have done is started limiting the number of parties I will accept on a weekend to increase the time I have for studying. I try to work on information gathering, organizing etc weekdays and I want to actually write big assignments on the weekends.

With my new schedule I want to move the days I will try to work out to be Saturday, Sunday, Tuesday and Thursday. I just don't know when I will be back on track with it because every other day I wake up feeling really congested and find it hard to get my cardio in. If this cold isn't gone by Monday I will get in to a doctor and see what's up.

Please stay with me as I am not giving up, I am just struggling to find a workable balance.

Day 59-63 (I'm Back)

Oh there is just no excuse for this slacking. I am so sorry for taking such a break from this blog. Some days I have simply forgotten, and others I just couldn't find the energy. I am still fighting off this nasty cold that my son has since picked up.

I am off the blogging track but still doing pretty well otherwise. Making healthy choices has never been easier. I find myself not snacking much at all anymore in the evenings. I haven't ate anywhere like McDonald's, Wendy's, KFC etc. When eating out we stick to the healthier options like Mr.Sub or Extreme Pita.

My working out is not where I'd like it to be and my goal is to get back to a more firm schedule. In part it's because I am not feeling well but it's also adjusting to my new schedule. I will be working out today but I didn't make the effort to do so yesterday. I am using this week to feel out school and re-evaluate my original ideas about the best time to workout. I will implement any changes for next week. I really just want 4 days a week in somewhat of a balance.

I am liking school a lot more now. I feel more like myself and more secure with the concept of what college is and what it isn't. I've met some great people and one girl in particular who wants to use the school's athletic center with me. I hope to implement that into my routine soon. She even said we could do yoga classes together.

Other than that, I promise to try to check back in daily like I am supposed to. I miss you all :)

Day 57 and 58 (Sick)

Well it happened... second day of school and I start feeling a cold coming on. Sure enough today I am here with a full on cold; coughing, sneezing, sore throat, watery eyes, stuffy nose. The works!

I didn't do my planned workout after school today because I could hardly breath and didn't think I'd get through a workout without fainting. So I guess I took a sick day. I will try to work out tomorrow if I feel any better, otherwise I will just do it Saturday and Sunday.

My eating has been fine and I have been good about bringing a lunch and snacks. I'm still on track and as focused as ever in many areas of my life.

I am currently sipping on some neo citron and then I'll have some meds and cover myself in vicks in an effort to shake off this cold. I guess I've been isolated at home for too long and my immune system just cant fight off the germs of fellow classmates like they used to.