Thursday, September 9, 2010

Day 57 and 58 (Sick)

Well it happened... second day of school and I start feeling a cold coming on. Sure enough today I am here with a full on cold; coughing, sneezing, sore throat, watery eyes, stuffy nose. The works!

I didn't do my planned workout after school today because I could hardly breath and didn't think I'd get through a workout without fainting. So I guess I took a sick day. I will try to work out tomorrow if I feel any better, otherwise I will just do it Saturday and Sunday.

My eating has been fine and I have been good about bringing a lunch and snacks. I'm still on track and as focused as ever in many areas of my life.

I am currently sipping on some neo citron and then I'll have some meds and cover myself in vicks in an effort to shake off this cold. I guess I've been isolated at home for too long and my immune system just cant fight off the germs of fellow classmates like they used to.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Day 56 of 730 (First Day)

Today was my official first class. I have to say I feel a little better. I know I will feel better in a few weeks. I did do my workout as planned this morning before class. That in itself was such a great feeling.

I have a lot to do so I cannot post much but wanted to say hello and let everyone know that I am sticking to plan. I promise to post something of substance as much as possible.

I love all my readers so thank you for every comment. They really make me smile and keep me going.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Day 54 and 55 (Nervous Eating)

This past week has been somewhat of a roller coaster ride for me emotionally. One minute all is fun and fine and the next I am a nervous wreck. Yesterday we were at my dad's house visiting for a bbq lunch when randomly for no reason I just had to be home and because we could leave the second I started to feel an anxiety attack coming on. It was a very quiet hour long drive home.

Once we got home my husband was being unusually patient with me and my mood slowly changed to being more relaxed. However I then found myself munching on cheese and crackers. When they were done it was popcorn. When that was done it was chocolate. Finally I went to bed because I felt I was trying to eat because I was nervous and not because I was actually hungry.

This morning I feel like I cant even eat. It's almost like the reverse of nervous eating... now I am too nervous to eat. Tomorrow is the first day of school. The first day of my family's new routine. I feel bad that dinner will not be on the table for them when they get home. I feel bad that my kids will have longer school days because they will need before and after school care. I wonder if I made the right choice.

I guess deep down I know it's the right choice for me and my family in the long run, but today it just feels so scary.